Rebirth

Rebirth, a concept of mythical proportions. A concept with scientific impossibility. A concept of many a religion. The Phoenix, an epitome of Rebirth. Burns in flames to be born again from Ashes . Rebirth does challenge the concept of "ashes to dust".

But this is not about the life and death and..... life again story. This is about Rebirth of thoughts. Every now and then we need to rethink, reevaluate and rethank God for everything he has offered to us. I did, last week. I went to this bakery near my place. And I saw these three kids playing, all siblings , all girls. One probably about a year and a half old, the other about 3 and the other about 5. They were covered in dust, they hadn't washed their clothes for years probably because they had only one pair. And they were playing in the hot sun with a small red bottle cap. There were apparently no rules, but there was all fun. And I thought to myself about how lucky I am. And I also knew life is what you make of it. Here they are , nothing in their hands, no future and no past , and nightmarishsly scary, no present. But they were happy with what they had , a sole red bottle cap.

Someone was right when he said " Two men look out through the bars, one sees mud and the other the stars!".

Rebirth, Rethink, Reevaluate and Reprioritize what you want in life!

Today and God!

Everything that could go wrong. Did go wrong. Today. Long story short. I realised that there was one minor error in the job I was assigned. But that minor error which didn't effect the end result anyway made me spend a lot of time in finding it and correcting it. So, that isn't a problem isn't it? A mistake that didn't cost much was rectified. But here's the big picture. Today I was leaving for Hyderabad, and I took a holiday on Friday which also gave me the Saturday and the Sunday. But because I was delayed by this , I had to cancel my trip. So I went out in the rain on my "new" bike, got drenched all over, got the ticket cancelled, but couldn't get any money back, because if you don't cancel 24 hrs early , you don't get a refund.

So here I am, a mistake that was not a big problem atall, made me cancel my trip, which I could have gone on. Add to that I get wet all over, and don't even get any money back for my ticket for all the effort. Go figure! All the effort coming to nothing atall. Now I have a holiday on Friday, and I have nothing to do on Friday. I had planned a trip on Saturday with a bunch of old friends. That's off the menu now. Because I was wet and I had to get back to office, I decided to change my clothes. And take the bus. That took even longer to get back.

And add to that my manager was helping me doing something. He is a great guy, and he spent a lot of time with me, we were trying to get something done, but couldn't. After about 3 hours we found out that the software has a bug. See, all the effort for nothing again!

So Nothing takes a lot of effort and that's the lesson I learnt today. It drove me crazy but I am happy. I didn't want to say " Oh God! why me? " because I have so much more to be thankful about. It is just one bad day in my very lovely life. And I ask for God to give me more, but I shouldn't complain for "nothing". I am sure, God gave me these small obstacles to trip over , so that I don't fall into a pit that is lying further down that road.

Thanks God , thank you for this lovely day!

A dream , A bike, A victory

If you have read my previous posts ( out of some wierd coincidence!) you would know I been searching for a bike that I love. Sadly they don't make it anymore, it is Yamaha RX 135 , a 2 stroke bike that has the pleasantest of noise and a heart of a lion. After a lot of looking around for a bike that is absolutely good in condition I found one atlast. It is probably one of the last made and it is the newest I could buy. A 2005 , March made model.

I could write a thousand lines of poetry on it, but then nothing can surpass the pure rhyme of this bike. I hope God gives me plenty of nice memories on it. It did come a little expensive for a second hand bike but then it is worth it. For now I don't have much time, I need to go on a long drive again!

One fine day

Yesterday was a fine day indeed. A saturday , the first of the weekend, a perfect day to let yourself loose. So me and a couple of new guys ( from my office, they joined when I did) decided to go to The Forum ( in bangalore) . The Forum is a great place to be or so I was told, its hip , its cool, its got movie theatres and a shopping mall. Kind of enjoyed that. Didn't go for a movie though, I rather watch one in my home at my own leisure . So we came out and thought we would just sit around for a while. And this is what happened... spoilt the whole weekend. Don't get me wrong, I am not a kind of guy who is moody. I don't lose my temper nor do I have mood swings. Some people call me the Iceman, nothing really gets on my wrong side, almost nothing.

So we were sipping a nice Pepsi and it is fairly obvious we ain't blind. Right in front of us was a group of 2 guys and a girl. That was one nice TV series loved it a lot. But coming back to the incident, this girl is actually spoon feeding something to her boyfriend and the other guy is probably the boyfriend's friend or something. Well, it is all cute I know, kinda lovely too. Display of public affection... I probably wouldn't do that but I wouldn't ask anyone else to not do that either. So there they are, right? Right smack in front of my vision that just wandered to the front. Like everyone else's does. And all three look back at me ,It was just one of those times for no reason everyone's vision syncronises on each other. But then their gaze wasn't a gaze anymore , it was a stare. A stare that would make me feel guilty for a crime that I did not commit. But I didn't feel guilty , I did nothing wrong. But I hated that look that they gave me.

I have only one question, if you do something in public and you expect everyone else to turn blind, that would be an outrageous expectation. I wasn't judging those three, but why would they judge me? I wasn't the one who was publicly displaying my "love" for another. I wasn't even peeping, I was sitting right there, right infront of the mall where a hundred other people are hanging around. And then this didn't happen once , it happened twice. I was taking the escalator down and there is this young couple in an eternal hug. May I emphasize that they were right in front of me. And this guy is actually facing me. And he is looking at me, as if he means to kill me. And I am the one who is supposed to try to look away rather than make sure that I step off the escalator properly. So why do I need to look away? I will tell you why....because a lot of people are hypocrites.

India is growing and westernizing in someway. We see more and more young people displaying their love in open. And these people expect others to just mind their zone of vision and they usually stare back at you as if they would eat you up . But I say its got to stop. If you think that you are quite modern and you are quite comfortable with public display of affection , you can't blame someone whose line of vision accidently moves towards you. If they believe they can do this in public and they want the public to oblige , to be more patient towards them , because they are the open minded people, then they are wrong. They are not open minded. They are displaying this act of affection out there in the open because they can't do that in their homes, in front of the family. Are they willing to do that? No. Because they are just hypocrites who use the " modern openmindedness" to their own advantage and they wouldn't dare do that in their homes.